I awoke this morning with peace in a light heart. Life is not perfect and there is so much I desire for the future but right now life is pretty plucking good. I looked up at the sky through my window as I layed lazily on my back it was a light misty blue with thoose streaks of cloud that are created by strong winds high up in the atmosphere. I have re-abandoned myself to God I have ranted, raved, cried like I never have before and am trusting once again in my Father. I have absolutely no idea where this journey is going or if there is a destiny to follow but the more I trust in Father the less I need to control circumstance, be anxious about and fearful of. Ironically enough the more I release into God’s care the more released I feel to chase the dreams of my heart. I expected God to disagree with the longings I hold as idols or distractions but the exact opposite is true. He placed them in me so that I would desire to walk the path He has for me rather than having me struggle continually against myself. I have two watch words to be mulling over in these coming days “Faith and Trust” these are words of relationship and of hope. I am not to grasp them tightly and berate myself when I sense a lack in myself or others but I am to permission myself to trust in God’s and other’s goodness and faith that God’s will will be done. Life is good and will get better but for now I can rest knowing that He is good and that our realtionship can only get deeper.