Trial by firing squad

I wake from peaceful slumber looking to the time as a cold trickle of fear slides down my slowly closing throat,

Late lazy bones,

I dash and run about collecting my thoughts and belongings apologising without reserve,

Let down - tardiness,

I arrive all out of breath and myself way behind my body dragging it’s heels,

Disappointed in you,

I stride around looking to fulfil the gap left by me. It’s his birthday the special one did you remember?

why do we bother,

The gaping chasm that is despair opens before me and I see my idiotic grinning face staring back,

loser can’t do anything right,

Whole day my heart upon a knife edge pleading silently for good words, smile and nods of acceptance,

Needy one,

We need to see you for a moment I hear with my ears, a voice screams this is it end of the line,

Fearful one,

I try to explain myself pointlessly the words are trafficed jammed in my head the traffic lights removed,

Stupid,

Mountain, a mole hill I cannot climb I don’t have what it takes as I walk away silent and fractured,

Weak,

They, they stood the accusations like a firing squad with only one target…………………………………….

Now rejection the final nail in the coffin…………………………….



Originally posted on http://tairngir.tumblr.com/page/88
Jan 16 2009

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